Don't be afraid of meYou are so afraid of me.
I see it in your eyes.
I see it when you turn away when I get close.
You are afraid of my abilities.
You lie to me when you say you are not afraid.
You lie to me trying to make me believe other than what my eyes see.
I know fear. I know it from many things i've read it as well. Do not tell me that you aren't afraid when you are. Its very painful and saddening when you move away from me just for who I am. It pains me so much it nearly brings tears to my eyes. You say you forget I have my abilities. I know you too well when I begin to use them for the good use. I don't like seeing you in pain. My powers can only be used to heal others and not myself for it plays with the simple rules of equal exchange. Can't have one thing without sacrificing something else. You are my all and it pains me to hear so many put-downs from you when you talk to others of what I am. You seem not to forget then why? The way you have been treating me seems as though you don't
Nobody listens to me.I'm yelled at.
I'm unable to respond.
Sadness in my heart just because no one listens to me.
Why why does no one not a single soul out there ever listens to what I have to say.
I'm quiet. No body really seems to care about me.
Should I go go far away with no food or water or anything else. Walk in the blazing sun cooking to death every day and night. No one ever listens to what I have to say. Stuck I am in a situation I thought was going to be so short yet it prolonged longer than expected. unprepared I am due to me not knowing how long i'd stay. No one ever listens to what I have to say just because i'm quiet doesn't mean I have something to say. Still I await the day tears come to these eyes of mine. I wanna help around this house yet i'm waiting till everyone else wants to work on it as well or else I wouldn't have a clue what to do cause it ain't my stuff. I feel as though I should end my life right here and right now.
Twin flameWhy why must you keep your distant just because of a few abilities I have. These powers are meant for you. You are the other flame that together brings me these powers. I feel so alone when you avoid me so when I love you deeper than the deepest ocean and thensome. It makes me sad when you distant yourself away from me it hurts a lot. We are two parts of a whole when together you and I can accomplish so much than either of us is alone. Upon writing this my entire body feels as though its on fire much like how you feel the cold as you shiver needing my warmth. We are soulmates. A twin flame we are. *sigh* so distant yet so empty I feel without your mere touch. I wish you would stop freaking out about it and just accept it love it and find the answers as they come. I'm sure with a lot of research you and I can find many answers to a lot of our questions.
The Worriness of usThe Worriness in my heart aches so much. The things I think when you are now here with me with but a motel to stay and that will eat one's money up so quick. I shall be by thy side forever no matter what many many troubles that shall arrive for us to congure. I have thought of one solution or two if no one here will take you in for but a while. A tent for us to sleep in would be good. Need a sleeping bag or two to go along with it but it does give one a roof over one's head while sleeping. The love I have for you wants me to be by your side not ever leaving it but to be physically with you forever. Yes I could sleep in my own bed in a house that i'll have to pay rent but instead I choose to be with you. I want to make so many memories with you no matter what might happen to us. We shall if need to be homeless together working for money to get such a wonderous thing. A laptop and a few other things shall I bring that I need to be by your side. You and I shall make it through the trouble
My Love shall never ceaseThe Love I have for you shall never be broken. Losing you means losing myself my world I have wanted for so long. The pain of losing you shall be great if I lost you for good. A plan I have if it works shall get you here now. The money I have should be enough for a ticket for you to be here. I will owe the niehbors so much if they allowed you to stay. Hang in there. Our love for eachother shall overcome what is to come don't lose that sliver of hope. Do whatever you can to survive. Note me as often as you can when you can so long as you can manage to get the net. The worrieness in my heart shall never end till I know for sure your safe and sound and likely that is here with me together forever. When you come bring the things most important to you any material things you know that can be bought make a list of them and in time I hope to help regain that of which you lost. I love you and i'd do anything to make you mine till the end of time. I need you I need you to stay with me bear the
The worryness of todayThe Love I have for you is never-ending and I don't ever want it to. I think about you everyday nearly all day. I'd give you anything if I was could. I beg of you don't leave me I don't want to let you go. If you go then I would have nothing left to look forward to. I know you can hold on longer just look at far you have gotten. I'm nearly wrought with worry for you of the worst that could happen. If no contact were to happen within a years time or even two I would know for sure your gone. The only thing needed for you to stay in contact with me is noting me on DA if possible so I know your ok. I want the best for you and you know i'm working towards that more than ever I know you may say you can wait and I can do what I want and get what I want but now I realize The material things I wanted are now pushed back to get you out so much sooner you mean so much for me and my love for you is deep too deep but its there. I really am trying not to worry and I believe this nosebleed